Princess Brandi

Since he likes referring to me as a princess I feel it only necessary to write my thoughts.

There is no way I am a princess...this was a small discussion last night. I asked him to explain what made me a princess. His reasons were not valid.

1) Live in a palace
2) People take care of me
3) I have lots of oils, lotions, and shampoos (that's the killer)

I think that was all he had to say...which is why it is not valid. A, I do not live in a PALACE/CASTLE/MANSION its a single-family home. Yes, my parents do provide for me: insurance (til 23), car, phone, shelter, and food (for the most part). Let's explain something...I am a full-time college student and I work three; thats uno, dos, tres part-time jobs so yes I do pull my share. For number 3...what woman do you know who does not have a lot of these smell good items. My point precisely!

If I were a princess I would have a driver, nice big car, servants, and people who did anything I wanted them to do for me...but I don't therefore I am not A PRINCESS. Oh his explanation for me not having those luxuries. I am a modern princess! Have you heard of such a thing...I haven't.

I bet those princesses in other countries have all the things I named and they live in modern times (not medieval) I would not mind being a "princess" if I was called one in a nice way...not because I am fortunate to have parents who provide for me. You bests believe once I graduate ALL THINGS will change. The funny thing about that is in my head I WILL BE A PRINCESS because I like nice things and I will buy those things for myself.

Thanks for reading!

My Own Worst Critic

I'm back and even more judgemental this time around.

The cold air has hit Topeka again, in preparation I dressed warm but also semi-professional for work. I laid my clothes out last night. Decided to put on a long skirt and some boots since the snow was coming. I checked the mirror before I left for class....outfit didn't look too bad. Once class was over I headed for work.

While at work I looked in the mirror again....in disgust I thought I look about 30 years old and I'm hardly pushing 25. I look like a short, dumpy-looking woman who made a poor choice in clothing today. This did not make me feel any better about myself.

Then I thought what did people think when they seen me at school today. Although I was sitting in class....oh well. I will do better tomorrow!

The Trap

That's what I call it.
Maybe I have gone too far. Tell me if I did.

Just found out another friend is expecting a baby. A guy this time. We haven't talked in a while and the first thing he says is "I got a baby on the way" "Oh My"
is all I could say at first. I feel bad for these people out here. Maybe it was planned, by the woman at least. I think I remember him telling me he wanted to wait a while and how so many people he knew had kids. Well he is another HPHS statistic. Most people that went to my school have kids, no one gets married. They just pop out babies. Marriage is very rare! Its really sad. Well wish you and the your new family the best!!! :)

I Busted My Ass

When I arrived to KDS cousins house I walked around a huge puddle of water so I would not get my feet wet. When I was leaving KDS cousins house, it was about 1:15am. I was walking down the driveway toward what I thought was the water puddle that I had previous avoided.

There was now a car in the driveway so I had to walk through the puddle. I walked slow as to not splash water on my pants, before I knew it, my feet came from under me and I was on the concrete. As my body hit the ground, my head went up and came down and thud hit the concrete as well.

Since I am here to tell you the story I made it alright by the grace of God. Got to thinking once I got home......good thing a car was not driving up the street. I jumped up quick from the ground though, didn't want anyone to see me. :) I was thinking...hope I can drive home and not have a concussion but knew I would feel the fall in the morning. Went to bed with a aching head. Woke up with a sore backside. It was funny to me. Now I def know I will never attempt ice skating (again) and will be EXTRA careful when walking around ice. All these years I haven't fell but always feared falling. I know the pain now :(

Older, Meaner.

Never thought I would get labeled as mean.
Its funny to me now.

Last night I hunged out with my prego KDS....she is 17 weeks and I am a proud God mommy to hopefully a GIRL!

She has a cousin that is 20, almost 21 and he has had a crush on me since he first laid eyes on me. Yes a crush, lol. (I am cracking myself up) Naturally he isn't that much younger but he is my girls cousin and I was never interested all these years. This has been going on I am thinking since my junior year of high school maybe.

Well last night he was with KDS and trying to sweet talk me as usual. It was a interesting night. He had some good pick up lines. His cousins were cracking jokes, telling him to give up and leave me alone cuz I will never change my mind.

It was touching for me; His endurance and determination to make me his. He wants to be my man. Said he wants me to help him change his life around and would def do it if he had me. Anyway KDS cousins (that she used to lived with) boyfriend said, man, Brandi is still mean after all this time. I looked at him and thought to myself then replied, yea the older I get, the meaner I become. They laughed. In actuality its kinda true. No point in trying to sugarcoat the truth. Not many guys are worth my time and why waste it when its so precious??

My point exactly!!

Probably is the reason I am still single but I can't complain, the people that matter most enjoy my company.

Funny one for ya next......................

Pretty Random

Just been thinking in the last five minutes or so. Was gonna call my girl and asked what she was wearing to a job interview that she has tomorrow. She hasn't held a "real" job since working during high school. Then I began to think about my situation and the fact that YES I am still in school while she has graduated and attending graduate school. Besides the fact that I am my own person and different than most....a comment she made popped into my head.

She was having a hard time finding a job. She thought about it, man if Brandi can have three jobs I know I can find one. Funny how people compare themselves to me. Anyway then I thought about the fact that she has graduated from an undergraduate program and I am working on my fifth year of school in August. I am working on a tough major....its not a walk in the park. I am taking my time because the outcome would benefit me for a lifetime also I am going to school and working. I have recently started taking less hours so I could improve my g.p.a. its working. I passed all three classes last fall!!! I am extremely proud of that. I have not done that since I began college.

I am proud of my friend for graduating but it made me think of my own shortcomings. I ought of be really proud of myself because I am a rare commodity. Its not often that you find a young black woman doing well like myself. Every once in a while I need that reminder. I am smart, holding down three jobs, and going to school. I have my own car and I do not have any children. I am beautiful and best of all I am saved by HIS grace. I am not lost because God shows me everyday the reason for being. I try not to let small things make me fret because again God is there is He is able to remove all heartache and pain.

Will try not to take so long to write next time. :)