Went to Dallas this weekend!
I had a blast, hung out with a friend of my parents as my mom attended training for a new phenomenon she has created in her life. I am proud of her!
So anyway we hit the road about 5:30p headed home. We had eight hours and 400 plus miles to cover. She started us out and drove into Oklahoma City. I drove us home by the grace of God. I was not tired but it was dark! I do not mind driving in the dark nor do I mind driving but after being on the road all day it tends to take a toll on you. A surprise phone call liven up my drive. You will never know what the calls mean to me. My mom fell asleep on me for a good 45mins when she woke up she wanted to talk. I had been grooving to my ipod so I told her she should listen to some of the songs. I gave her a ear bud and we jammed all the way home! It was a fun shared experience and I was glad I was able to share that special bond with my mom.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
What Happened to Your Self-Confidence?
It's a very good question. Glad you asked because I am not sure. Maybe it's there just not as recognized in all areas. For instance......I have this thinking (crazy you would say) that most if not all guys when they see me are like hmmm she's is a good looking woman. I say that because of constant stares and facial expressions. The user name speaks for itself...I am a rare commodity in "these parts." You sir may disagree because I have not supplied a "valid reason" to support my claim. But even you yourself see the potential so it must be something beyond my physical features.
Now back to the topic at hand. Self confidence...it has weaken in the last three years or so. I would have to relate it to my weight gain. My weight has been up and down and then steady for a while. Naturally after high school women put on weight because physical activity starts to decline. Well my extra physical activity stopped about three years ago and working out on my own was the only way I could keep the weight off.
Excuses is what I call them because that is exactly what they are........but I let my daily activities keep me out the gym.....too busy with school, work, and needing time to study, I hardly have time for myself. Me time is defined as going to the gym. I enjoy working out but there never seems to be enough time in the day. I am either tired, gotta complete an assignment or its just too late to away from home alone. Excuses excuses.
So this guy...may as well put it out there (my friend with the benefit) is to me obsessed with weight. It's pretty ridicious actually. Anytime we see fat women he makes a comment...I told him to stop because its not nice. He told me about this chick he used to mess with...he practically watched her get big before his eyes. Sad but true. What does all that have to do with me you ask. Well I am self-conscious about my weight because its not where I would like it to be. I have even told him not to discuss weight in my presence because I don't wanna hear it. (one of those touchy subjects you know) So all of that would in some way suggest my reason for a lack in self-confidence. I once told a friend I bet if I had the body I wanted then people couldn't tell me nothing! He said yea probably that reason I don't. My weight keeps me grounded. Being a perfectionist already causes me to think everything has to be prefect and if it isn't then well that's just not good enough. I know what I gotta do and it will be done! My self-confidence has strengthen and before I know it I will be blowing people's mind.
Now back to the topic at hand. Self confidence...it has weaken in the last three years or so. I would have to relate it to my weight gain. My weight has been up and down and then steady for a while. Naturally after high school women put on weight because physical activity starts to decline. Well my extra physical activity stopped about three years ago and working out on my own was the only way I could keep the weight off.
Excuses is what I call them because that is exactly what they are........but I let my daily activities keep me out the gym.....too busy with school, work, and needing time to study, I hardly have time for myself. Me time is defined as going to the gym. I enjoy working out but there never seems to be enough time in the day. I am either tired, gotta complete an assignment or its just too late to away from home alone. Excuses excuses.
So this guy...may as well put it out there (my friend with the benefit) is to me obsessed with weight. It's pretty ridicious actually. Anytime we see fat women he makes a comment...I told him to stop because its not nice. He told me about this chick he used to mess with...he practically watched her get big before his eyes. Sad but true. What does all that have to do with me you ask. Well I am self-conscious about my weight because its not where I would like it to be. I have even told him not to discuss weight in my presence because I don't wanna hear it. (one of those touchy subjects you know) So all of that would in some way suggest my reason for a lack in self-confidence. I once told a friend I bet if I had the body I wanted then people couldn't tell me nothing! He said yea probably that reason I don't. My weight keeps me grounded. Being a perfectionist already causes me to think everything has to be prefect and if it isn't then well that's just not good enough. I know what I gotta do and it will be done! My self-confidence has strengthen and before I know it I will be blowing people's mind.
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