And I don't try to fake as though I am.
"Liar". Yea you see I don't like liars and since I love myself I don't see how I fall into that category. Probably not good enough for you, but you will get over it. While you try so hard to group me with the others you have encountered, you failed and burned. I don't tell you things to make myself look better, its factual. Make a real effort toward getting to know me and you would soon find out. It's not this act to attempt to lure and deceive. I do not have this philosophical mind so my answers will not be mind-blowing. I speak from what I know and my heart and if that is not genuine enough then your wasting your time.
You may think differently, but you are the only person I have opened up to with those that I tried to "indulge" in anyway. Now to you that sets your lie detector off saying I lied to the others. Naw that ain't it. It's called not showing all my cards at once. One doesn't truly knows a person until time has been spent getting to know one another. While others have had me, none of them really knew me. And as I have grown so has my mind and the way I mesh with others.
I don't think twice when revealing my quirks to you. (showing my true self) The person I am behind closed doors when it's just me and the four walls. Yes I admit I have hidden myself from others and to this day I'm pretty sure they haven't the slightest idea who I really am. Just because I didn't tell you something when we first started talking and I tell you now does not make me a liar. What it says is it takes me time. I have my guard up, as to not make foolish mistakes again. If that makes me a liar, well I just don't know what to tell you. But in that area you can't argue much because you know how you are and "I don't blame you for that".
I have a pretty good idea of who I am. Many don't know that person, does that make me a liar. No because they have not tried to. I may not know exactly what I want but I know what I don't want. I can only be me with all the things that come with that. Improvement is necessary for most and I am more than willing to do that but that takes time as well.
I am finally starting to get it....... what people deal with once an image has been painted. Karma is a bitch. I don't have a problem following and being submissive to the control freak inside because if things are complete then I wouldn't see it that way. As far as things I won't do that goes both ways. There is always someone that will do whatever it takes. What people do is compromise to make it work for the one they want. I'm not willing to settle. I know where greatness lies.
I have not met such an individual as you. Wow is all I will sum you up as. I just don't understand you or your methods. Or maybe I do and just think you should take another glance before attaching names to me.
Because as the name of my blog states, A Work in Progress. Your profound, think about it.
