Momma

Text to my momma 3/15/09 as I rode back to my twin's house after service.

Ya know I'm having moments of empowerment. Wanting to share my power with others by giving encouraging words. Then there are days of sarcasm when I try to be witty and say the first slick thing that comes to mind.

I need a balance.

With my transformed thinking I evaluate people a lot.

(Add in- And a lot of people are FULL OF SHIT!!)

I really want to be inspiring and encourging showing others that they too can experience life the way I do. *Add-in because it is grand!! And when I dealt with some........they were always DRAINING.

I want them to transform their thinking and not always be so negative.

And please give love to my babies (Referring to Dre and Tracee)

Continue to be the strong and powerful woman that I know you are. I am proud to be your daughter and am enternally grateful that God gave me such incredible parents to help me shape my existence. Although I don't always show it, I appreciate you and acknowledge you.

I'm So Vain

I bet you think this song is about you. Don't you, don't you. I do.

I think every song is about me.

Song this week is "Free" by Mya

I can't walk past a mirror without stopping to take a glimpe of myself.

I know I look good so it is not uncommon for heads to be turned once I enter a room.


I have the capacity to arouse on sight.

I'm conceited, I have a reason.

I don't think any of these things, I know.

I think this post had meaning at first thought....now after its been a couple weeks I do not know what to add.

I am keeping my time filled well these days....you are no longer a thought. It was fun. Peace

AH

I have came to the conclusion.....I am a bitch. But guess what I could careless. Heartless even at times.

It's not that I am unstable more like I have mood swings. Some without a actual cause too. Oh well life goes on. I am still happy and doing my own thing daily. I get so tired of men who think it is ok to do everything on their terms. Who died and made you King??? Uh no one.....that's what I thought.

I am still enjoying my spring break, have not done anything too exciting but chilled. Went to the mall the other day, my new friend joined me. I was on a hunt for an Easter fit :) Went home empty handed but I have an idea of what I want to buy. Trying to find something to match these shoes I brought last year. Haven't wore them....pity me. OKC wasn't too bad. Enjoyed hanging out with my friend and found the cutest princess dress for my Tracee!!

Received a random text last night....claims every crazy person needs someone to talk to.....uh well not you. If I remember correctly it goes "Quit talking to me" I did that....take your own advice.

I may make it to KC this evening...Crab Legs here I come!! It's been a minute and I have been craving them. I was telling my friend last night how I am enjoying work again. I feel important and know that the tasks I complete are significant. Such a great feeling.

Nothing new to share....will try not to let months go by again.

Later

Time Has Passed

It's been a while since I last shared myself. A lot has occurred since January. I got a promotion within my department. Extra money is always exciting especially during the present state of the economy. Ignorance is Bliss.

I still can not complain for God will always and does always provide.

Making some changes in my life, socially and intimately.

The Advanced Course is the first weekend of April. Wonder what new changes it will bring. I have already shyed away from some individuals. I am restructuring my friends and spending more time with more of them. One can not have all my time.....not sure if its appreciated and her attitude is repugnant. I can't take too much more of it on a regular basis. Like I told him...the two of them are draining and being around them for too long causes me to get in a funk. (Not Cool!)

I have been spending time with some real laid back people and I love it. Have known them forever of course but, they are good people and even better friends. I am happy and things are continuing to get better.


I finally called it quits with my ex. No going back on my word a week later either. I think he finally got it. Still said what he had to say........ but his trying to make me feel guilty did not work. Stood my ground and I am proud. I will always have for love him and he will forever be one of my good friends but I can't continue down this endless path. So I am officially unattached right.
Yea.
Then guess what happens.
Funny I am still laughing. A new person in town and I am showing him around :P Spring Break is coming up....I'm ready for a break. Nothing major planned.........going to OKC for the weekend to kick it. We'll just see what the new week brings.

Peace