Draft date says 2016. Which can't be right. I was married. Hmmm
I'm posting because fuck my drafts. I'm an adult. I don't remember feeling this strongly for you. I guess that explains why I can't stand you now. April 2020
It has come to my immediate attention after reading through my posts again and again that I have not much mentioned you. You're like my every day, all day thought and I have not even leaked your name. My friends know your name...Nina does well as we were always on the phone when I was with her. Parent are aware. BEST no longer calls you mystery. And Twin is excited at the thought that I have someone as amazing as you. Yep, I called you amazing. Each day I ponder and think I may be falling in love with this man. You are my paragon of what my God-sent mate, man that I desire, head of the household, and father to my babies ought of be. I consider our first encounter, and while it was inappropriate on my part I am so glad it happened. Just like that same night it hit me just how utterly attracted I was to you and it just baffled me. First time for everything. Right. And yes, it's even true you're the first man that has liked me and I reciprocate the feeling without another thought. We're taking a chance here...you had me at hello. And I know in my mind I cheated on my then boyfriend that night and we never touched. My thoughts did it all.
You push and challenge me like no other. I love that. Its apparent that you love me, and you're everything I ever hoped for in a husband. Is that saying too much. Probably. Are you perfect, no. But who is. Are there qualities that I dislike, sure. Who doesn't have them. All of your good far out weights the bad. There is tainted information....again, not perfect. So I would just say there is work to be done and little ole' me needs to settle my heart and patiently await for all the things that are yet to come. I love you, I know I don't say it often. But I mean it with every fiber of my being. So to you my future Sir...baby steps.
September 2021
Damn. I said I can't stand you and immediately knew to whom I was referencing. Crazy, now, you are going through a divorce. I can't save them all. I told your ass to be better. I feel terrible as a relationship coach.....but you can't force a person to change I learned and it cost me thousands of dollars and weight gain. 💁
DO BETTER!
