I Ain't Like Those Other Girls

I am NOTHING like those other girls. I strive to be different from everyone else. If you looking for a ghetto, lip smacking, colored weave wearing, full of drama having chick then you need to look elsewhere because she is not here. I am a strong, education Christian young lady. Lady, did y'all hear me!!

I don't smoke anything nor do I associate with people who do. I am a conservative young lady who is sassy but classy. I do know how to have a good time. I have been perceived as a snob, which isn't the case; I am pretty shy around new people. You won't find me in the club getting grinded up on the wall (I am not 18 anymore!) I have respect for myself and I demand that others treat me with that same respect.

I do not attempt to be something I am not. I love listening and singing slow jams. If my radio is bumping when I'm riding up the street, its either gospel or slow jams! Hip hop and rap are becoming but I prefer something I can sing along with. I am not a sell out, I just know what I like. I love my heritage and culture but I do not have to prove that by the clothes I wear, again I say, I am conservative.

I'm not an easy cut as a guy would say. Thanks Nate. It was once said if your just looking for an easy cut then you better off going somewhere else because she ain't like that. She's real cool but not an easy hit, a direct quote from this guy I know. There you have it folks, I'm nothing like those other girls.


I have been known to play "hard" over the last six months. Nothing personal, I'm just out for the best interest of my heart and having it broken again is not an option. I do not like to argue and fuss....I know disagreements will occur but its best to work them out with calm mature conversation. After all, we are all adults here.

I do my best to be considerate of others feelings, but I am not perfect. I won't know if something I have said or done bothers you until you tell me. I try my best to reciprocate the same to others. I speak my mind and feelings on most occasions.

I do not physically share myself with many people nor do I expect them to be sleeping around on me. I may be addicted after all, who knows. I do NOT get down that way, STD's AND HIV are real and I do not want any of them.

I love to smile, you usually won't see me walking around with a "mean mug" unless I am deep in thought or something/someone has wronged me. I try not to hold grudges, I rather work it all out so there aren't any negative feelings between the two parties. I'm just a happy person, most days. :)

I don't care what people think about me because they can't make me or break me and MOST TIMES THEY ARE JUST HATERS ANYWAY. I know I have a grip of them just based off who I am; A child of the MOST HIGH GOD, beautiful, intelligent and a rare commodity, HA especially in Topeka.

So either take me as I am, or be gone.

Just One of Those Days

ITs WedNEsDay, should have been MOnDAy the way my day has gone thus far.

I got up early today because I had to get my 3rd Gardasil shot (to prevent cervical cancer) the shot hurt like heck and the nurse had blood everywhere! She did not wear gloves, it was all good for me. She wiped my arm, put a band-aid on me and sent me on my way.

I decided to save money so I went home to prepare breakfast because I was starved. I did not eat much the day before. After a well-prepared meal I laid down in the bed! Slept for about another hour or so............I could not get up for anything!

When I laid down, the sky was dark and it was pouring rain outside. I finally got up because I had a couple assignments to complete before I had to be at work at noon. I got my assignment done just in time to get dress and head out the door.

I decided I would grab some fries, shake, and drink from McDonald's (its Monopoly time!) I was also gonna stop by Dillon's and get some fruit. I got to the second window at Micky D's and the guy handed me a drink holder with the bag on top (bad move) I grabbed it and asked for barbecue sauce in the process my fries SPILLED all over the front seat, so much for that. I ate what was left knowing I would still remain hungry. I stopped my Dillon's, no good fruit, decided to make a salad, (good move) IT WAS GOOD!

Once I arrived to work, I thought to myself how am I gonna carry all this crap in?!?!? I proceeded to exit the car.....doing ok so far. I sat my shake in the seat and it fell over! Milkshake over on the seat now. Grabbed some napkins, cleaned it up. Tried again, stupid cup kept falling! I kept thinking I need to just go back home and get back in the bed and try again tomorrow! I sure hope the day gets better from here. Its only 12:30 p.m. man!

After work I have to hurry to WU and finish correcting my exam before class at 5:30 p.m. LORD I need you! I pray it all works all. This evening is dedicated to cleaning my room, preparing for tomorrow and eating a meal! I have to. Until we meet again. Later.

Someone New

I'm back. Here is something else for you to read. Please leave a comment this time around.

There's this guy, no big surprise there. I met him some years ago; maybe two. I had him in class at WU. He was starting new as a freshman. I believe he had been in the army or something like that. Too long ago, I don't remember. Anyway he is a few years old than me and I knew then in 2005 he was interested.

At that time and ever since then I have been with someone. Well up until now at least. I don't even know if I am interested in him. He wants to date me. He has finally "got the nerve" to talk to me. I gave him my number like last year and he has never called.

I see him here and there around school and more recently at a club since I don't be on campus like that. Last weekend I seen him at the banquet I went to; I laughed about it because I had not seen him in a while. So I sent him a message to let him know I was there. At the end, he literally broke his neck to get to where I was so he could speak and he asked for a hug. I was being nice, so I gave him one. My mom and her friend was like, "who is that?!?!" My mom friend, Irene (you gotta love her) is a 67 year old woman and sharp as a nail. Sweet as she wanna be was like who was that, he is CUTE! I'm like wow. My mom and I both noticed how he broke his neck getting to where we were.

When I used to see him on campus I would try to sneak past without being noticed but he usually seen me and he always said something real nice, giving me a compliment. He used to come into the library where I worked on campus, my boss thought he was my boyfriend. I was like no, just a friend. Was happy when he stopped coming by; don't like all the attention.

He seems like a decent guy so I will give him a chance. I've never dated anyone before may as well see what its like to be dated. No harm in that right?

A Family

I have came to a final decision that I do want to have children; NOT NOW but in the near future. Like five to seven years all depending on my career, financial stability and whether or not I am married by then. Hopefully I will at least have a potential husband by 27. But there is no rush, all in God's time.

I wasn't so sure before but now I know. I want at least three children, its doesn't matter their sex, but LOL I do want a girl!! When I was a young girl I remember telling everyone I wanted eight children, not sure where I came up with that number but it stayed like that for years. Well until I got older and realized how babies were delivered and the pain a woman must endure. But even without the personal experience I believe the blessing of having a baby far outweigh the 4-24 hours of labor.


For the last few years I have wanted to experience carrying a baby, all the changes that come with it. Watching my body change as my own child grows inside of me. I only wanted to experience that, none of the morning sickness, and definitely not the baby birth....or afterbirth for that matter. :0)

I have heard too many horror stories...I wish someone would say some of the pleasant things associated with baring children. I know something has to be good about it because so many people out there have at least two or three children.

That's all for now. Later

Strawberry Letter

I am starting to think my life is like a Strawberry Letter straight off the Steve Harvey Morning Show; let me explain.

There are three men in my life that have triggered my sincere interest. That's a major step for anyone to overcome because yes I am beautiful and guys notice me but that doesn't mean I will like you. People have tried and I have played them all the same. I play nice for a while then I just quit acting interested. So back to these three men. Not so sure if they even know who they are, but maybe because I throw hints best I can.

One I love and think I want to spend my life with, but hell I'm only 22. Only God knows what my future holds. Besides there is a long list of reasons of why we can't be together just yet. Hell he doesn't even want to be with anyone. As his friend, I'm gonna be there for him regardless because through it all, my heart was not broken. I forgot to mention, he may not even be right for me. That is something I am not sure of. If I listen to everyone else then I won't ever find out cuz people give him such a hardtime.

Then there is my guy whose life is full of EVERY SIGNAL telling me to let it alone, yea that's my country coming out.
But I still talk to him. He is my friend too so what type of person would that make me to not be a good friend? Huh?

But he has too much going on. I got my own issues. He has two children, same woman but she is a crazy white chick who needs to get her shit TOGETHER.
They live under the same roof so he and I will never attempt anything until that mess changes. He says its so he can see his children, which I completely understand regardless of the fact that I don't have any nor that drama. Since the white chick is crazy if he tries to go anywhere she will not let him see the kids and that will hurt him.
(its all crazy I know, that why I said it sounds like a Strawberry Letter.)

So to be a good dad, he stays and not really puts up with her cuz they are on different schedules but he sees his girls daily. I mentioned visitation, he didn't really like that but maybe once chick gets on her feet he can move out. God sure hope he does, he will never be happy if he stays.

Then there is the last guy. The one I can't have, can't see, can't touch. The one I barely know but every encounter makes me want him more. He is the one I wished lived up the street from me. He is the one I think about everyday. But we live different lives and its doesn't look good from this angle.
We may not even ever date. That makes me sad. :(
Only time will tell. Like I told him, I am willing to wait patiently until its our time. Just hope I don't go and mess it all up along the way.

That's my Strawberry Letter.