There are three men in my life that have triggered my sincere interest. That's a major step for anyone to overcome because yes I am beautiful and guys notice me but that doesn't mean I will like you. People have tried and I have played them all the same. I play nice for a while then I just quit acting interested. So back to these three men. Not so sure if they even know who they are, but maybe because I throw hints best I can.
One I love and think I want to spend my life with, but hell I'm only 22. Only God knows what my future holds. Besides there is a long list of reasons of why we can't be together just yet. Hell he doesn't even want to be with anyone. As his friend, I'm gonna be there for him regardless because through it all, my heart was not broken. I forgot to mention, he may not even be right for me. That is something I am not sure of. If I listen to everyone else then I won't ever find out cuz people give him such a hardtime.
Then there is my guy whose life is full of EVERY SIGNAL telling me to let it alone, yea that's my country coming out.
But I still talk to him. He is my friend too so what type of person would that make me to not be a good friend? Huh?
But he has too much going on. I got my own issues. He has two children, same woman but she is a crazy white chick who needs to get her shit TOGETHER.
They live under the same roof so he and I will never attempt anything until that mess changes. He says its so he can see his children, which I completely understand regardless of the fact that I don't have any nor that drama. Since the white chick is crazy if he tries to go anywhere she will not let him see the kids and that will hurt him.
(its all crazy I know, that why I said it sounds like a Strawberry Letter.)
So to be a good dad, he stays and not really puts up with her cuz they are on different schedules but he sees his girls daily. I mentioned visitation, he didn't really like that but maybe once chick gets on her feet he can move out. God sure hope he does, he will never be happy if he stays.
Then there is the last guy. The one I can't have, can't see, can't touch. The one I barely know but every encounter makes me want him more. He is the one I wished lived up the street from me. He is the one I think about everyday. But we live different lives and its doesn't look good from this angle.
We may not even ever date. That makes me sad. :(
Only time will tell. Like I told him, I am willing to wait patiently until its our time. Just hope I don't go and mess it all up along the way.
That's my Strawberry Letter.
Then there is the last guy. The one I can't have, can't see, can't touch. The one I barely know but every encounter makes me want him more. He is the one I wished lived up the street from me. He is the one I think about everyday. But we live different lives and its doesn't look good from this angle.
We may not even ever date. That makes me sad. :(
Only time will tell. Like I told him, I am willing to wait patiently until its our time. Just hope I don't go and mess it all up along the way.
That's my Strawberry Letter.
1 comment:
Hmmm, I think the liking people status is worst than a Strawberry Letter explained, it has since changed. I told you I was taking myself off the market and no jumps were made so that comment is null and void.
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