Family Craziness

I have known all my existence that my family was not the Cosby's. We have never had a Family Reunion; can't all get along. My granny had seven children; Thomas (died as an infant), Robert, Delores (deceased), Thomasine, Patricia (Ann), Johnnie, and Janciette (Baby). I love my family but we are not close. My grandma had two sets of children; my mom and aunt baby are the second set. There is a eight year gap between my mom and auntie Ann. Anyway let's get this on the ball.

My mom graduates December 15th of this year from her Master's program. We are having a formal dinner to celebrate in her honor. My mom and aunt baby just started talking again at the end of October after a month of not speaking (on my behalf); thats another story. Anyway my aunt decided she was coming here for the graduation. She purchased a ticket for her and my cousin. I have been asking my granny to come as well. My grandma is 77, diabetic and spends all her days inside the house alone watching tv. I can't stand that. She is married but my step-granddad is a "junker," people's trash is his treasure. So he spends a lot of time out driving around.


I been asking granny for a few weeks to come. She hasn't been here since December 2003. She been putting off saying yes all this time. Finally, I called her Sunday. She said call her later and she would give me an answer. I love my granny to death. I am the favorite grandchild! She used to watch me all the time. We have a bond and I would do anything to get her to move here.

My grandma agreed. She would come to the graduation. I told my mom, we talked and decided to get her a ticket. Meanwhile (not to my knowledge) my mom and auntie baby had discussed that auntie baby did not want to be RESPONSIBLE for my granny and she didn't want her to come because she was not well to travel. This is what my mom told me, I was in disbelief. I called my aunt and she returned my call early Tuesday morning. In a sharp tone, DO NOT PUT MOMMA ON MY FLIGHT, I WILL NOT COME! Just pure selfishness. She says she is on vacation and doesn't wanna be responsible. My grandma is GROWN! If she is not well then why in the hell is everyone keeping it a damn secret. Then expect my mother and me to know whats going on 700+ miles away.


So my mom and me got my grandma a flight out a day early and my aunt Tommie is suppose to take her to the airport. A wheelchair was arranged. I told my granny and she was upset. I don't wanna go alone she says. I don't blame her, but her SELFISH daughter didn't want her to travel with her and my cousin. I couldn't tell my grandma that. So fine its set. This morning my aunt calls and she and my mom are fussing. It's 6:15am!


My aunt is going on and on how momma is not well and she needs someone with her and the airline will mistreat her and she needs to be treated as a child BUT remember her saying just a few days before, DO NOT PUT MOMMA ON MY FLIGHT, I DO NOT WANT TO BE RESPONSIBLE. So they going back and forth. Then my aunt is like put momma on my flight. Another suggestion was get a one way ticket out there and then she takes original flight back because that was with them anyway. Oh and she has Finals so she doesn't have time to help momma get ready to come to Kansas. Wow.
Oh my grandma fell the other day and no one bothered to share that information with us. So yeah. My granny needs a break too......one from boredom!

The crazy thing....I got a text message from my cousin, my mom is not coming.

ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?? WHAT THE HELL!

My mom ended up calling me before I finished this post. She was able to change my grandma flight (she is coming and leaving with my cousin). When my mom told her sister, she was relieved. CRAZY
She is the one that started the confusion. We would not have had to go thur this if she would have just said from the get go that momma could fly with them. No one knows if my aunt is coming or not. Who Knows. Will give an update in December. Later.

Thank You Lord for ALWAYS making a WAY!

Eye Candy

I seen my eye candy again last week.

Think he lives in Chicago. His name is Brandon and he is the nephew of my First Lady. His family was in town for Thanksgiving. I am thinking he is about 17 maybe 18 nowadays. Anyway he first caught my eye in August 2004 at my Pastor's Installation. I had to ask Joan (First Lady) how old he was....and to my utter surprise she said ummm about 14-15.

Dang is all I could say. He was TOO YOUNG for I was 19 then.

Anyway hopefully on next visit I will get my nerve up enough to introduce myself. By the time he returns, he will be legal. Kinda a crazy situation anyway considering his little cousin Tracee is my most beloved god sister. :)

Don't know what I was thinking.....Joan is in her early 30's so of course her sisters are not that old, at least not my mom's age.

Brandon and I once again caught each others eye. I was in speaking distance but being the shy person that I am......I didn't. It was Sunday, after church and I was in the aisle holding Tracee when I looked over and noticed him. Instantly remember that was the face I seen three years ago.

"I'm part of the family now."
There is no way I can get to know him on any other level.

Anyway that's all about that.

Next....My Crazy Family.

Settle Down? HA

Oh no...It’s happening. I am coming to a point where I do not want to deal with a relationship.

He has done it......made me like him.

I have developed a short span and tolerance for bullshit when it pertains to guys, which isn't a bad thing. :)

I have been talking and texting a few different guys over the last couple months. I haven't talked too serious with any of them because like you said, its best to close one door before opening another. The previous door is still ajar.

I am at the point where I do not want to be in a relationship because then I can't be SINGLE and talk to anyone I want. I love being single but when I see couples I wish I shared that "togetherness" with someone. Its crazy I know, but I am straddling the fence on this.

I used to jump through hoops to please men and do as they wanted. Not anymore.....it’s a good thing. Now I just play around. Sometimes they end up hurt. All the while I get easily frustrated with them. I keep them around for the conversation. I don't like the feeling of not being wanted so when many guys show interest in me, it make me feel good, is that bad? Guess I do have suitors Mr. Anderson.....but none of them are worth a toot. Which is why I say I don't have any.

Put it this way... I ain't gon beg you to love me
I ain't gon beg you to hold me
I ain't gon beg you to pick me up and take me out.
I ain't gon beg you to wife me.
Why should I have to, if somebody else will.

Little side note, ha.

I maybe leading "some" on...and I know that’s not right. I try not to because I do like "some" of them a little. That doesn't make it right and it surely doesn't mean I will do anything to keep them around, cuz my love is like WHOA. When they piss me off, I don't go out my way to communicate anymore. I let time pass then it is them who contact me. Oh I like that.

That's all for now. Peace & Love

Water Contamination

Is it in the water, do you take a drink and it instantly happens?
I thought I was exaggerating when I said ALL OF MY FRIENDS HAD BABIES.......I wasn't.

I received a text message last night, "Are you ready to be a Godmother?" Are you serious....I had to make a call asap this morning. I can not believe it.

Just Sunday Pastor mentioned during service how it must be in the water because we have a lot of babies in our church. He also said it was a good thing because it meant our church was alive; with all those small children.

Man, oh man. I must be missing something. Ha NO I'M NOT. I am good on not having any babies. I need to work on myself before I bring another life into the world. As I previously stated. Once I have graduated from college, gotten married, established a career, and am financially stable then I will have children. Not a MOMENT sooner.

I have enough babies in my mist to have a baby for years to come. About 40 people that I graduated from high school with has a child, some have two or three. Those are the ones I know about. Its probably close to 100 :)

I graduated in 2003 with a class of about 197 maybe. Its only 2007, almost 2008. Just think who will have a child by 2010. I have already been shocked when finding out some of the girls that had a baby. Man man man. What is the world coming to, wait until married been thrown out the window. It's a New century alright. I'm independent and a single mother of three. Whew.
Ok. I'm done.

Wait, something to add.
The way its going my children will be conceived in a new decade, ha. Oh well, I know one thing for sure. They will want for nothing because they momma gonna have it together and be on her "p's & q's!" Thanks!
And I'm out!

You won't believe it!

GUESS WHAT Carlos!!! hahaha

You will never guess who is starting to like me again. Its kinda funny to me but I almost feel bad for him because I haven't got the slightest bit of interest in him. In fact he almost grosses me out. That could be good. It can aid me in refraining from liking him as well. Oh it's Marcus. He is trying not to come out and say it because he knows I don't feel the same way. Now its almost awkward because we just started talking again (since he hated me and all) and I been telling him about the deal with my ex and how he drives me crazy weekly. Just like a friend he (Marcus) would just listen and try to provide insight. I can't talk to him about guys if I know he likes me.

WHAT AM I GONNA DO??