Why don't I fight for it?

A friend of mine asked me what was I passionate about. He said I gave a generic answer. I said my faith. Nothing genetic about that but guess he would not understand where I am coming from.

When I think about my life and think about all things I have overcame it all seems to be the same. For one I have not had "hard times" nothing too drastic at least. I'm blessed. Even when things seem like they are going bad, God continues to show me favor. I am favored.....I just must remember that.

What I don't do is fight for things I want. I do not go after dreams......I kinda just let things happen. When it gets tough I become depressed and seek counsel from those who will listen. I need to change all that. I need to get on my knees and talk to God He is the only one that can change my situation as long as I am willing to try.

My mom says every semester I seem to go through this "I can't do it".... "its too hard" episode. Maybe it is an episode but I must be this way for a reason. Not sure why I continue to do what I do. When my passion and excitement is gone for something I lose hope and throw in the towel. It has happened too many times before.......this is in regards to many things in my life.

Here is a list:
Dream of being a lawyer
Cheer leading
Attending school out of state/town
My major
Friends

Well those are the things I can remember at the moment.

Recently I have been trying to do a little better with this. It doesn't help when people make reference to it either. Some will ask so what's your major this month and I am quick to take offense and tell them it has been the same DECLARED major since 2005. When I am losing friends....depending on the person and situation surrounding it I do not make a fuss. I just let it happen. People come and go in life. Some are only there for a season!

I am proud of myself and my accomplishments I have made that will ensure me a bright future. I have one year left in school and I am glad to say that....it has been a long journey but once it's over it will be WELL WORTH EVERY PENNY....lol cuz it sure has costed an arm and leg.