Questions Answered.

Who am I?
Good question. I am still trying to figure it out. I know I am a woman. I am a student. I am a Christian. I am a sinner. I am loved. None of these truly say who I am and that is why I do not know.

The so-called guns are irrelevant. They are on my body. The statement had to do with a question asked about what kind of guns do you possess. Since I do not own a real gun I chose to say I had guns.

I want you to be mine, my best friend, my lover and the one I confide in. I want to be close to you and loved by you. I want to know you, your hopes, dreams, desires and aspirations for the future. I want to know what you believe. I want my love for you to continue to grow and strengthen. I want to stay up all night with you sharing my dreams. I want to be in full communication with you so you will know I can be all that you want and desire in a woman. I want you in my life and if I can't have you for myself then as my friend will do.

If I fail to get what I want then I will have to continue through life miserable knowing that I missed the opportunity to share my life with you by my side. I believe we met by faith. Introduced by chance and still in conversation by something within ourselves not ready to let go.

I am able to provide a lasting love that doesn't fail. Conceived in love and taught all my life how to love another person. I can provide open communication established through trust and honesty. I can provide a trusting loving relationship built on something far greater than wanting someone in your life.

But what I know to be true is I have not been able to truly give myself.....mentally or emotionally because I have been tied up with sexual emotions with my ex. I have been hiding behind that. I can't invest in you like I should when I give myself to another.
When asked if I was talking to other people....oh yeah I have tried but one really can't unless you are free of previous ties and unbound emotionally to another. (the F you convo I told you I have to have.) Free and untied is where I have to be before I can say I want you.