A conversation I had through text after the first day of my
Advanced Course, April 1, 2009

I have been forced to confront some issues in my life.
And I am trying to give up. Not wanting to realize all that I lack, I know I want to produce change but I continue to make excuses.

There is so much going on with me most days that I don't know that all of it will be resolved. And I don't know where to begin. For so long I have been trying to be this perfect person. Free of flaws and wanting everyone to love and accept me but never showing them who I really am. I have not been willing to confront my demons because anytime the opportunity presents itself I run and hide and say it's nothing.

I want to give up and quit my advanced course because I don't believe all I need to reveal or confront will come out like it needs to. I get angry when people try to tell me things I don't want to hear. I become withdrawn and make myself unapproachable.

Don't know what life has for me and it seems like I will always be searching. I will never be this great person that I have perceived in my mind. Just lost most days. Even that is not allowing myself to live to my full potential. I expect great things from myself and I am chosen. Because I know all things are possible.

What I would really like to get is really empowering myself. I give encouraging words and empower friends but when it comes to me I say nothing. I won't even take my own advice, it's crazy. How can I tell someone what they should do and I won't even listen to it.

Didn't choose the best person to send the message to but I knew he would listen and not say much back.....kinda just wanted to vent. I got over all that and God has taken me to a new level in Him.

The Moon

Oh too funny that I got this. Mr. Hicks would be smiling right now....we have been talking about the moon for the last week!!

You are The Moon

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Moon is a card of magic and mystery - when prominent you know that nothing is as it seems, particularly when it concerns relationships. All logic is thrown out the window.

The Moon is all about visions and illusions, madness, genius and poetry. This is a card that has to do with sleep, and so with both dreams and nightmares. It is a scary card in that it warns that there might be hidden enemies, tricks and falsehoods. But it should also be remembered that this is a card of great creativity, of powerful magic, primal feelings and intuition. You may be going through a time of emotional and mental trial; if you have any past mental problems, you must be vigilant in taking your medication but avoid drugs or alcohol, as abuse of either will cause them irreparable damage. This time however, can also result in great creativity, psychic powers, visions and insight. You can and should trust your intuition.

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