Death is all around us. Months have passed since we buried my granny. Funny as I started writing this post Alicia Key's song "Like I will never see you again" begin to play. This song reminds me of my Grandma, I know I have grown because I used to cry while singing it. I will always miss you granny, your spirit will forever be in my mist, R.I.P. Mrs. Jannie Mae (Mason) Greenlee.
Today I received news that my bosses father passed, my prayers are with the family. I used to not be bothered with death. Having faith in God gave me comfort. I know death occurs everyday but ever since losing my granny I have had a difficult time dealing with death. I feel "emotional less" not real sure if I should feel sorrow or just know it happens. Even when people tell me someone is not doing well I don't know how to respond....whether I should grieve with them or move on and not like their sorrow consume me. I don't like feeling like this....feels like I am cold-hearted....like I can't feel pain even though my heart is still healing. Maybe that's just it. I am still semi-grieving so hearing of others losses is something I am not yet ready to deal with.
Some mornings I wake up and think I have not spoke to my grandma.....then I remember I can't. She is no longer just a call away. My mom told me I can talk to her anytime but to me it will never be the same. I love you and miss you....until we meet again. This post is unfinished but I wanted to post it.
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When I was writing this post I wanted to add the thing I wanted to tell my granny but I could not remember what it was for the life of me. I remembered last night! SUPERMAN ICE CREAM!! Ever heard of it? Well in the city we have REAL ice cream trucks and they sold cups of handpacked superman ice cream...my granny and me loved that ice cream. The cups cost $1 then went to $1.25. Anyway a friend of mine brought a gallon of it one day so I told myself I would look for it at the stores in Topeka.....I finally found it. I paid 3.99 for one of those big clear tubs of ice cream...I wanted to call my granny and share the awesome news but I couldn't. Gonna think of my granny everytime I eat that superman ice cream.
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