More Late Updates

So, I'm back with more updates on life. Shit. Need to read old post to see what I have shared so far....back soon. 

Ok, so back to new career. I become officially FT with Calphalon on August 27th as I was promoted to ASSISTANT MANAGER!! Go Bran!!

I can finally put that 30K degree to use (sorta) and no longer answering calls from assholes! So I left Farmers April as previously stated, and at that time I was just a Senior Sales Associate at Calphalon. My manager had plans for me since hiring me in Oct 2011. So there I was promoted twice in 6 month time....lovely! God is able and I am favored!

I really shouldn't complain so much....think it keeps me humble. This has been an experience for me, leading and coaching others. Being boss. Who would have thought :O) Glad a chance was taken on me! I am grateful!!

Life in Texas still has its ups and downs, I'm broke and would like to move into a less expensive place, but mom says I need to stay so I will be content....least have a safe, nice place to lay my head without fear of safety. (Allows her to rest at night I'm sure.)

I am still SINGLE (that ugly word, ha), but it works for me. I love my space, my time, and not being bothered. I have bumped into men over time since my extent here. Some more worthy than others, none enough to keep around. I've been social with people from Midwest, so crazy I know. Trying to get everyone out of KS! Oh, and DeQuincy from Topeka lives here. Moved like right before me. When Krystal visited during my B'Day she put some ideas in my head. Things I had not strongly considered, but he knows how to keep his distance and I'm not trying to get people off track. He asked last time we hung if I had met anyone, told him how I don't care to since Texas boys have annoyed me immensely  I would like to get to know him though, he is different, sorta weird. I think my type, HAHAHAHA.

Think I am a coupled person worst nightmare....I shouldn't say that, but hey. So on to Woody. Met him June, he is older and likes catering to my drinking habit. Met him at a bar in which his attire kept him on the outside. He insisted on buying drinks anyway, so he became the guy to call. Then found out he was sweet on me, oh thanks. I like to normally blame Nina for this kinda behavior. He lasted til Sept, not bad for an Texan. He has a live-in (woman) but he is not committed. Sad. He does run when she calls though but he was hanging tough with us for a bit. LOSERS, something I didn't need but we loved the free drinks. 

Not sure I should even discuss Wesley ahhhhhhhhhhhh. He had a knight status until time allowed for true colors to show. Older as well. Younger than Woody though. LOL
Met him, well seen him right after I moved to town. Storyline: I was having HH with a friend at Pappasito's and we were just chilling, doing women. Talking, drinking, laughing. Guy walks by, stops and speaks but continues. Nothing. Next week, my friend is out and this guy sees her. Approaches her and ask about me (the friend). (Sign there, lol) Anyway. She is so excited and tells me about it. Then has me show up to this bar...she is leaving but someone wants to meet me. I go thinking she will be there. I decided to go in and say hello, then I would leave. Arrived, met him officially and had a drink figured ok, give a shot. He seemed cool so we exchanged numbers and continued talking. This is like January, we hung for a bit. 

Then I took a 2 month break because he annoyed me. Then I seen him again randomly one night downtown, didn't even know he went downtown....and got hooked once more. Sad! He was 32-33, with a 4yr old daughter. I was hooked on the fact he was a college grad and in school getting Masters. Had a stable job, but lived at home. Loser, ok. Claims he was saving for house, bet he was not giving parents rent or helped with bills. Anyway his player ways caught up with him and I feared he had some lady pregnant so I ended it. Like a DAMN year later. Shit he needs his own post. He seen that same friend of mine (he refs on side, she had boys) and asked about me. How I was doing and yada yada, wanted me to call him. Like I had his number still, nigga please! Get a life! So, I debated it a slight moment. Had a memory recall of Nina and her name for him.... Raggedy. Told her about it, laughed it off and didn't consider it again strongly. I may be bored, but not desperate or that crazy. When I had a relapse last year it was the 2nd chance for him. On to anything else......

Oh. let's discuss white boy Chris briefly. We worked together at Hell. He sat diagonal from me in sight view since I was moved to "floor." Trying to learn my job and not be a bother I didn't talk to him for months or ask questions. Then time went on, and he knew a lot so I asked questions often. He would always help me on my calls, found answers, come to my desk and let me find answers. Nice co-worker. Then my Amy moved near my desk and she and I kept up a good racket. He joined us often hence becoming closer. We always said he was too comfortable. Ha. So, like each year I plot Thanksgiving Sale (Black Friday shopping) and my mom had asked what I wanted for Christmas, it was between 2 things.... big screen or ipod touch. I was soooooo bored during work and this was pre data phone for me I needed some Internet connection at fingertips plus I listened to my ipod often. I was so tech unknown I didn't even know about the functions of the ipod touch. So I decided on a tv needless to say. I would get a touch later. So a weekend passed and Chris gets to work Monday and is like "look what I found," his old touch that he didn't use. Stated it was lost previously. Uh huh. He's like, "you want it?" I said, "uh , how much?" He's like, "nothing, you can have it!, I don't even use it or like it" I was really like, for real! SUPER EXCITED AND STOKED! Could not wait to share my story with friends of how I got my touch. The guy was sweet and let co-workers say...sweet on me. He grew on me, then I left that place! :0)

Fast Forward

Amy told me he had a GF (I was happy, yet shocked), some chick that worked there. (*shaking head.) Anyway, he was promoted and was having a celebratory HH at one of the fav spots...The Park. I asked Amy to ask if I could come, he was like of course, yes! Excited! Amy ended up not able to attend so I dragged Nina who didn't remember the random white guy that sat near me. But by nights ends she was like, uh he likes you. His GF sitting there entire time! Guys. But, I laugh.

Ok, so that's all folks until I do B'Day Weekend with the BEST post.........

We shall see if I have other things to share, like the Texan I met a few weeks back (He is a bartender.)

Oooooh, I wanna sleep!

Saturday, September 8, 2007 1:26 p.m.

Thinking of you in so many ways really helps to brighten my day.
Thinking of that smile that lights up the dark.
Thinking of that laughter that gives you that extra spark.
Thinking of you and all that you've done.
Knowing inside my heart , you're always number one.
Thinking of you and wishing you well, I sure miss you if you couldn't tell.

Text message received.
Looked up- nice poem  "Agape" LOVE by Smruthi
2012

***You Should Be A Virgo***
What's good about you: you have a quiet determination and aren't swayed by emotions
What's bad about you: you are an insane perfectionist and easily find faults in others
In love: you are obsessed with making your partner happy
In friendship, you're: helpful and giving - eager to be a true friend
Your ideal job: poet, flight attendant, or natural healer
Your sense of fashion: casual, upscale, revealing, conservative - you look good in all of it
You like to pig out on: a well prepared five course meal

2007

Abundant of Blessings

Abundant of Blessings

June 28, 2007

Current mood: ecstatic Category: Blogging
I am TOO BLESSED TO BE STRESSED!
Something I need to remind myself of daily for those down moments in life.

I have a praise report to share!
As always God has been continuing to bless me in my life. I was on a job search to pay for my summer class. Then I dropped one class and just decided I needed a second job to assist me in paying off my debt. I applied at TJ MAXX and they called me within the week. I was happy because I really wanted a job. But something in me said WAIT! So I turned down their job offer and I got online and applied for a few other positions....after waiting about a week I got a call from St. Francis Hospital asking me to come in for an interview. It was a successful interview and I was called back for a second one with the department in which I applied for. In the meantime I had also applied at Stormont Vail. They also called me in for an interview. St. Francis seemed to be on the ball with interviewing me; I was still awaiting a call from Stormont. They did. I had my second interview with Stormont with the entire department ( seven people ) and the last afternoon I received a job offer from Stormont! I was so EXCITED! MY first real job, benefits included! Praises be to GOD. Just yesterday St. Francis called me with a job offer as well in which I had to sadly decline, I am happy with my selection.
More good news!
I was awarded a $600 scholarship from my church to continue my education.
And to top things off, I am on my way to see all my family in the CITY, MOTOWN! WHAT WHAT
Holla at cha girl, i'm out.

Let It go

September 1, 2007 - Saturday
TIME TO POST Current mood: everybody in the club getting tipsy

Category: everybody in the club getting tipsy Blogging
This is not the place for this but who cares!!

I went out tonight and had a kick ass time (ha, who says that) Anyway....I got told ALL NIGHT how BEAUTIFUL I was. Which I already know to be true cuz I'm not conceited, I'm convinced!!
Anyway reason for post, I realized something. The few guys I've dated have never told me I was beautiful and they spent months some even years with me. How worthless is that. So Fuck You to all them guys who don't know how to treat a woman. All I got to say is:
If he ain't gonna love you the way he should, then let it go (If he ain't gonna)

If he ain't gonna treat you the way he should, then let it go (If he ain't gonna)

If he ain't gonna love you the way he should, then let it go (Let it gooo-ohhh)

If he aint gonna treat you the way he should, then let it go
YOU need to get it he don't wanna, love you the right way he ain't gonna.

It AIN'T WHERE HE'S AT, IT'S WHERE HE, WHERE HE WANTS TO BE!
I got it, plain and simple. Which is why I'm Single and NOT ACCEPTING APPS!
Thanks, have a great night all! BTW MY 22ND BIRTHDAY IS IN 3 DAYS!! GO ME!!

Time Drifts

Well no surprise there, but CB and I have drifted away. Says I value my friends opinions too much and take everything they say to heart. I've always been the same....actions speak louder. And I was told I could ask him anything. Amazing how that phrase is only words....also something else about me. It is rare that I think the worst until you show me otherwise and if others outside assume and KNOW nothing about us then again ACTIONS speak louder. 

Fell off after his b'day, stay off after mine. I tried weeks later to see where we were...he claims we're cool. That was on the 8th... stated he would call soon. Again, that was the 8th.

Will do separate b'day post. Celebration it was!

Guess who has been calling lately......yeah him. Interesting to me. At another low point in life. I am cordial and I have no animosity, we were friends before. Sure we can be again.

I sorta got used to the calls...sure they will stop, only come on his time anyway. People are so selfish. Think i'm done with this one, nothing more to say. Well, I could start in about the Hicks boy.

That was soooo long ago it seems. 2009...my summertime fling. Having him around certainly allowed me to move on past the asshole and spend time with someone that appreciated me. We spent endless nights together. I would be with him from evening into late in the eve, know we both had to get up early. That seemed sensual. We really weren't. I mean, there were moments and experiences and visions that could last a lifetime....I had to clear my thoughts on them and him. He left town August, just after his bday. Damn Leos, yet I still ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

So he left, couple days before my bday, I got a FB message. He was so excited, he was getting married. Many thoughts went through me like how just long ago we were. I know he never told his wife about me and that summer as she would have been a fool to say yes so fast. 7 years together is a long time, but when you were apart for 5-6 months a lot happened. Then got married 2 months later. I dreaded the day. What's funnier now is I don't even remember how I got over him. I think time healed me. My favorite song was I'm Okay by Chrisette Michele. 

As more time went on I was able to not feel horrid things, he reached out on the book and we had a few inappropriate message exchanges. He wanted me to hold on to the moments shared and reminisce with him. I couldn't. I'm over it. And your married. Scum of men. Backtracking. Before he left town he asked if I was ready to move forward and I was 23, still in school. Told him I would not consider marriage until for another 2 years. He shared a lot with me, I let him talk as I often do with people. Let them share their soul while I listen intensely taking it all in. Decipher the words and throwing out the parts that were just for a better lack of terms. Words.

I did miss us and the time we had. Oh I know what I did now....shame. LOL! Engrossed myself more into the man that had been trying to get at me prior to Hicks arrival. Gave him a fighting chance. Amazing how some become such great friends. One would always have a upper hand over the other. 

I'm gonna move on, this is making me laugh. And I need to get ready for my work day. I have more to update since my latest promotion and Texas status. 
Until next time, hopefully sooner cause I am literally months behind on updates. And so many missed events. Wesley, Woody, and hmmm who else should I include. Oh we can share my special Chris (that annoyed me). LOL

Later!