Time Drifts

Well no surprise there, but CB and I have drifted away. Says I value my friends opinions too much and take everything they say to heart. I've always been the same....actions speak louder. And I was told I could ask him anything. Amazing how that phrase is only words....also something else about me. It is rare that I think the worst until you show me otherwise and if others outside assume and KNOW nothing about us then again ACTIONS speak louder. 

Fell off after his b'day, stay off after mine. I tried weeks later to see where we were...he claims we're cool. That was on the 8th... stated he would call soon. Again, that was the 8th.

Will do separate b'day post. Celebration it was!

Guess who has been calling lately......yeah him. Interesting to me. At another low point in life. I am cordial and I have no animosity, we were friends before. Sure we can be again.

I sorta got used to the calls...sure they will stop, only come on his time anyway. People are so selfish. Think i'm done with this one, nothing more to say. Well, I could start in about the Hicks boy.

That was soooo long ago it seems. 2009...my summertime fling. Having him around certainly allowed me to move on past the asshole and spend time with someone that appreciated me. We spent endless nights together. I would be with him from evening into late in the eve, know we both had to get up early. That seemed sensual. We really weren't. I mean, there were moments and experiences and visions that could last a lifetime....I had to clear my thoughts on them and him. He left town August, just after his bday. Damn Leos, yet I still ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

So he left, couple days before my bday, I got a FB message. He was so excited, he was getting married. Many thoughts went through me like how just long ago we were. I know he never told his wife about me and that summer as she would have been a fool to say yes so fast. 7 years together is a long time, but when you were apart for 5-6 months a lot happened. Then got married 2 months later. I dreaded the day. What's funnier now is I don't even remember how I got over him. I think time healed me. My favorite song was I'm Okay by Chrisette Michele. 

As more time went on I was able to not feel horrid things, he reached out on the book and we had a few inappropriate message exchanges. He wanted me to hold on to the moments shared and reminisce with him. I couldn't. I'm over it. And your married. Scum of men. Backtracking. Before he left town he asked if I was ready to move forward and I was 23, still in school. Told him I would not consider marriage until for another 2 years. He shared a lot with me, I let him talk as I often do with people. Let them share their soul while I listen intensely taking it all in. Decipher the words and throwing out the parts that were just for a better lack of terms. Words.

I did miss us and the time we had. Oh I know what I did now....shame. LOL! Engrossed myself more into the man that had been trying to get at me prior to Hicks arrival. Gave him a fighting chance. Amazing how some become such great friends. One would always have a upper hand over the other. 

I'm gonna move on, this is making me laugh. And I need to get ready for my work day. I have more to update since my latest promotion and Texas status. 
Until next time, hopefully sooner cause I am literally months behind on updates. And so many missed events. Wesley, Woody, and hmmm who else should I include. Oh we can share my special Chris (that annoyed me). LOL

Later!