The year 2013.
The title made me consider other flashbacks....true to form. Picking a year and writing a recollection of the events that took place.
So 2013 was a significant year in time...4 of my closest female friends experienced a tragic lost, one that some women fear...losing a child. It is true that some may consider unborn children fetuses or not living or an embryo even. I believe at conception, you have a child/baby/miracle/blessing forming in your womb. It took me a while to determine my stance on continuing life being pro life or choice. While I have always felt a particular way, never having being faced with the decision I've often wavered. At this time in my life I know whatever happens is His Will because all this time...nothing.
So back to 2013, if you haven't noticed yet...my mind drifts and I am not able to stay on task :)
During different parts of the year I received news of expectancy...at least from 2 of them; the others didn't know they were expecting right off. With one, I was so overjoyed at the thought a new baby in our circle especially since she wasn't trying and babies are always good...right. Pregnancy was kept a secret, I found out and kept the news to myself. I couldn't tell her I knew until she told me.....talk about excitement! When the bad news broke, I received that first hand and it was like a piece of flesh had been torn from my side. Death is always sad, it is better when you know the person has a relationship and is going to see the Father.
2013 in my life was interesting. I started the year busting my ass, still living in Texas as an employee of 2 companies. Retail and health care. Started a PRN position at a hospital near me, went through formal 3 week training but never got to work much because of my hectic schedule as Asst. Manager. I had a "boyfriend" for a couple months. Poor decision making. Life was good.....partied hard, we kic'd it as Nini would say! Our spots, HH, downtown, her place.... even took a trip to Houston. Were suppose to see Rih Rih, but that bish canceled on Texas (sick)....hung over ok! We made the best of our trip....it goes down in the books :)
Think it was end of April/May when I decided to move back to Kansas. Was ready to be near parents again. We were even house shopping...I wanted a house so bad! Tired of apt living for that price and dumb neighbors. We opted out. Guess that was end of 2012 :)
I packed for what seemed like an eternity....months. Worked, packed, slept. My manager left her position and that put a strain on my time, but I adjusted and made the best of it. Nini and I partied like a rock star before I officially left the Texas area; she even threw me a "going away" party *love*
Life back in Kansas has had its moments. Good and bad, def for the good on home front and love life. I miss my life, friends, place, social life that I had but I am welcoming the change. Another adjustment..later in life. It's needed I know. New things/changes maybe arising soon. Good things come to those that wait...and I am praying for the best possible outcome cause there are things I just don't want right now.
Kansas was good to me on the job front, while I quit my job "early" in August and I was unemployed for over a month...less than 1 month back I had a job offer for FT work.....less than a month later. Another job offer. So God has been good to me...this I know. Never doubted and while the year started rocky for some....2 of those same ladies are again expecting babies! The other is engaged and the 4th taking time to enjoy her life and appreciate each moment. God works wonders each day. I am just glad to be apart of His plan.
Monday, March 24, 2014
Thursday, March 20, 2014
Passing Time
Placed on wrong blog...opps.
Days like this I am reminded why I want so desperately for school to start. I am bored senseless. And when I am bored I play a game...when that gets old I don't know what to do. Reading is my fav and he suggested a place I could go online and read but I rather not open random sites on desktop. It even has an app...but I removed it. Got over it quick. Usually catch up on news via Yahoo.
Bottom line...I don't want to sit here and eat because I am bored. The sitting is bad enough.
So here I write...and not a particular topic but it passes time (sorta). I could text him, but no particular topic and texting is obvious....wish we could email again. Plus for heavens he does work :) He is the only person in life that I have ever communicated with throughout entire days. Like I feel lost when we haven't exchanged a message in a while. Weird I know.
Back to boredom. I need a challenge in life. A passion. Something that drives, pushes, and motivates me beyond being able to buy what I want. Why I work. These jobs I have don't seem to be preparing me for much. I still believe I need a skill, but in what I don't know! I want to win the lottery or get an inheritance. Stay home, raise babies, and keep house. Ugh, I just said that.
I really want a house. I want to live in a place that I call my own and just be. Cook, and clean for another. Particularly him. Ha.
I really want a better climate too. I moved back to Kansas and they had a terrible winter. Drags. All of this seems like complaints...maybe it is. I am happy with being around my parents and him. Miss my friends in Texas terribly bad. I am able to be closer to my Best but being pregnant makes it hard for her to want to do much beyond work. Babies both due toward end of May...these Gemini's I tell you. Well, on to something else.
Until we meet again.
Later.
Days like this I am reminded why I want so desperately for school to start. I am bored senseless. And when I am bored I play a game...when that gets old I don't know what to do. Reading is my fav and he suggested a place I could go online and read but I rather not open random sites on desktop. It even has an app...but I removed it. Got over it quick. Usually catch up on news via Yahoo.
Bottom line...I don't want to sit here and eat because I am bored. The sitting is bad enough.
So here I write...and not a particular topic but it passes time (sorta). I could text him, but no particular topic and texting is obvious....wish we could email again. Plus for heavens he does work :) He is the only person in life that I have ever communicated with throughout entire days. Like I feel lost when we haven't exchanged a message in a while. Weird I know.
Back to boredom. I need a challenge in life. A passion. Something that drives, pushes, and motivates me beyond being able to buy what I want. Why I work. These jobs I have don't seem to be preparing me for much. I still believe I need a skill, but in what I don't know! I want to win the lottery or get an inheritance. Stay home, raise babies, and keep house. Ugh, I just said that.
I really want a house. I want to live in a place that I call my own and just be. Cook, and clean for another. Particularly him. Ha.
I really want a better climate too. I moved back to Kansas and they had a terrible winter. Drags. All of this seems like complaints...maybe it is. I am happy with being around my parents and him. Miss my friends in Texas terribly bad. I am able to be closer to my Best but being pregnant makes it hard for her to want to do much beyond work. Babies both due toward end of May...these Gemini's I tell you. Well, on to something else.
Until we meet again.
Later.
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
March 2014
Somethings just go without saying. Like my love for you, the fact that I am constantly thinking of you and us when we're apart. How my thoughts run rapid as soon as we depart, but when we're together I am focused on the moment. In the moment. The time spent. Our time.
It's almost mid March already....life flies. I swear. Trips, baby showers, and life changes planned in the upcoming months. My TWO best friends are pregnant....both with boys like 1 month apart. HOW CRAZY IS THAT!!!
I am yet again on the planning committee for KDawn...alone this time, but my mom is gonna help me create fun stuff. Have all things prepped, decor, invites (which need to be mailed), cake and food ideas, location. My twin and her hubby are having a shower in less than 2 weeks, gotta travel to OKC for it. I just can't believe how fast this year is already going. Been with Stormont almost 4 months, still working in Lawrence.
Oh. Quick praise report! I applied to grad school!!!
I was accepted on January 29th to Baker University's MBA program! I am just awaiting the start of a new cohort!!!
Ok, back to March..... I am going to LA for the FIRST time at the end of the month to celebrate Nallie's 30th!! It will be her, Mel, and me. The youngest granddaughters all together again painting the city RED. I can't WAIT!!!
Love life is on the up and up, still talking to Mr. Mystery man as some refer to him as...I'm glad he decided to stick around. Told him just last week how I never would have imagined talking to him. We're been FB friends since forever and even went to the same HS. Ran in different circles, but he seems familiar. The attraction is strong. Guess this isn't his post, but I have to do adds when I can.
No Spring Break plans for anyone this year....mom pushed back her trip with my God mom to Chi-Town. I have tons going on. Mentally and emotionally. Operation get these breast removed is going into FULL swing come April. I am tired and my body aches. I am over it. It's so funny to me, I remember in middle school praying I had boobs. Now I am praying them off!
Jumping all around....sorry.
Oh, work is interesting to say the least. Not much to share, it's honest. I make it there daily. The shift rocks, and each day is different. I work in a specialty clinic and you never know what you're gonna see or hear.
My social calendar has came to a halt pretty much. He doesn't do out yet. Told him that will have to change. I know I love to run.....I can stay at times, but not daily. I love him, I haven't openly written that yet. We aren't as different as we seem. And attempting to read a book together. Just a mess.
I'm gonna bring this to a close. Next post may be about me dodging people in Hobby Lobby or how I pray Summer in KS never ends because this new winter back...sucked like balls :)
Later until we meet again :)
It's almost mid March already....life flies. I swear. Trips, baby showers, and life changes planned in the upcoming months. My TWO best friends are pregnant....both with boys like 1 month apart. HOW CRAZY IS THAT!!!
I am yet again on the planning committee for KDawn...alone this time, but my mom is gonna help me create fun stuff. Have all things prepped, decor, invites (which need to be mailed), cake and food ideas, location. My twin and her hubby are having a shower in less than 2 weeks, gotta travel to OKC for it. I just can't believe how fast this year is already going. Been with Stormont almost 4 months, still working in Lawrence.
Oh. Quick praise report! I applied to grad school!!!
I was accepted on January 29th to Baker University's MBA program! I am just awaiting the start of a new cohort!!!
Ok, back to March..... I am going to LA for the FIRST time at the end of the month to celebrate Nallie's 30th!! It will be her, Mel, and me. The youngest granddaughters all together again painting the city RED. I can't WAIT!!!
Love life is on the up and up, still talking to Mr. Mystery man as some refer to him as...I'm glad he decided to stick around. Told him just last week how I never would have imagined talking to him. We're been FB friends since forever and even went to the same HS. Ran in different circles, but he seems familiar. The attraction is strong. Guess this isn't his post, but I have to do adds when I can.
No Spring Break plans for anyone this year....mom pushed back her trip with my God mom to Chi-Town. I have tons going on. Mentally and emotionally. Operation get these breast removed is going into FULL swing come April. I am tired and my body aches. I am over it. It's so funny to me, I remember in middle school praying I had boobs. Now I am praying them off!
Jumping all around....sorry.
Oh, work is interesting to say the least. Not much to share, it's honest. I make it there daily. The shift rocks, and each day is different. I work in a specialty clinic and you never know what you're gonna see or hear.
My social calendar has came to a halt pretty much. He doesn't do out yet. Told him that will have to change. I know I love to run.....I can stay at times, but not daily. I love him, I haven't openly written that yet. We aren't as different as we seem. And attempting to read a book together. Just a mess.
I'm gonna bring this to a close. Next post may be about me dodging people in Hobby Lobby or how I pray Summer in KS never ends because this new winter back...sucked like balls :)
Later until we meet again :)
New Year......time gone, habits remain.
Again it has been a while since I wrote....definitely a lot going on and me never finding the moment to just stop, breathe, relax, and write. The new year has gone well thus far. God has taken me many places and kept me together through it all.
Wait, let me start over....Thank you Lord for life and breathe and all the amazing things you have shown me thus far in life. I am approaching 5 months back in Midwest and have had 2 jobs. Beat that recession!
I got my first position with Core First (been trying to get into banking FOREVER), I applied multiple places, but after my second interview with bank managers I got a job offer that afternoon! I don't know that I have ever had HR work that fast. Typically managers have to wait on HR to get it together. So I was offered a FT teller position and I took it....worked 6 weeks I believe because SVHC was on it trying to get me on. I had applied and interviewed for 1 position ( it was given to someone else, but God had a greater plan) that same position I obtained with a November start date. And just like I wanted it was out of town :) )
I have gone back and forth with the idea of living in Topeka of course but getting out of town each day is helpful and I don't have to see the familiar faces while I'm working.
Decided to go ahead and post 3/11.
Wait, let me start over....Thank you Lord for life and breathe and all the amazing things you have shown me thus far in life. I am approaching 5 months back in Midwest and have had 2 jobs. Beat that recession!
I got my first position with Core First (been trying to get into banking FOREVER), I applied multiple places, but after my second interview with bank managers I got a job offer that afternoon! I don't know that I have ever had HR work that fast. Typically managers have to wait on HR to get it together. So I was offered a FT teller position and I took it....worked 6 weeks I believe because SVHC was on it trying to get me on. I had applied and interviewed for 1 position ( it was given to someone else, but God had a greater plan) that same position I obtained with a November start date. And just like I wanted it was out of town :) )
I have gone back and forth with the idea of living in Topeka of course but getting out of town each day is helpful and I don't have to see the familiar faces while I'm working.
Decided to go ahead and post 3/11.
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