Flash Backs

The year 2013.

The title made me consider other flashbacks....true to form. Picking a year and writing a recollection of the events that took place.

So 2013 was a significant year in time...4 of my closest female friends experienced a tragic lost, one that some women fear...losing a child. It is true that some may consider unborn children fetuses or not living or an embryo even. I believe at conception, you have a child/baby/miracle/blessing forming in your womb. It took me a while to determine my stance on continuing life being pro life or choice. While I have always felt a particular way, never having being faced with the decision I've often wavered. At this time in my life I know whatever happens is His Will because all this time...nothing.

So back to 2013, if you haven't noticed yet...my mind drifts and I am not able to stay on task :)

During different parts of the year I received news of expectancy...at least from 2 of them; the others didn't know they were expecting right off. With one, I was so overjoyed at the thought a new baby in our circle especially since she wasn't trying and babies are always good...right. Pregnancy was kept a secret, I found out and kept the news to myself. I couldn't tell her I knew until she told me.....talk about excitement! When the bad news broke, I received that first hand and it was like a piece of flesh had been torn from my side. Death is always sad, it is better when you know the person has a relationship and is going to see the Father.

2013 in my life was interesting. I started the year busting my ass, still living in Texas as an employee of 2 companies. Retail and health care. Started a PRN position at a hospital near me, went through formal 3 week training but never got to work much because of my hectic schedule as Asst. Manager. I had a "boyfriend" for a couple months. Poor decision making. Life was good.....partied hard, we kic'd it as Nini would say! Our spots, HH, downtown, her place.... even took a trip to Houston. Were suppose to see Rih Rih, but that bish canceled on Texas (sick)....hung over ok! We made the best of our trip....it goes down in the books :)

Think it was end of April/May when I decided to move back to Kansas. Was ready to be near parents again. We were even house shopping...I wanted a house so bad! Tired of apt living for that price and dumb neighbors. We opted out. Guess that was end of 2012 :)

I packed for what seemed like an eternity....months. Worked, packed, slept. My manager left her position and that put a strain on my time, but I adjusted and made the best of it. Nini and I partied like a rock star before I officially left the Texas area; she even threw me a "going away" party *love*

Life back in Kansas has had its moments. Good and bad, def for the good on home front and love life. I miss my life, friends, place, social life that I had but I am welcoming the change. Another adjustment..later in life. It's needed I know. New things/changes maybe arising soon. Good things come to those that wait...and I am praying for the best possible outcome cause there are things I just don't want right now.

Kansas was good to me on the job front, while I quit my job "early" in August and I was unemployed for over a month...less than 1 month back I had a job offer for FT work.....less than a month later. Another job offer. So God has been good to me...this I know. Never doubted and while the year started rocky for some....2 of those same ladies are again expecting babies! The other is engaged and the 4th taking time to enjoy her life and appreciate each moment. God works wonders each day. I am just glad to be apart of His plan.