5 months have gone by......He wanted to remain friends. Why I ask. I don't have decent friendships with ex-boyfriends hardly ever, why does he think he is different. This friendship thing lasted all of a few months and I told him we can't do this any longer. No communication/ No hanging out. Who makes the first move, him of course. Showed me who needs who, because I know I don't need him. Anyway.
Why does he send me his cell number once he gets a phone and inform me that he has unlimited text messaging. I thought I said no communication!
Mistake One: Helped him clean out his apartment.
Mistake Two: Answered messages sent.
Ok so this past week has been a crazy one. Random messages sent between the two. I told you about one from Friday night. The whole sorry "I know I take you for granted." Anyway Sunday rolls around. Back-up Saturday night. I get a text about one something, I want to see you. Ha I'm in bed sorry.
Sunday afternoon. Now Sunday morning was rough for me. I was having a melt-down for some reason. Upset about everything and none of which was that big of an issue. So when I received Sundays texts I had had ENOUGH! From him and every other male in Topeka. I decided to get off-line (myspace and facebook) and change my cell number so worthless people could no longer reach me. Now its Monday and I'm thinking. WHY should I change me for them? I have had my number for six plus years. Fuck them, don't answer or text back!
(I still may change it, have not decided)
Sunday messages were very random, they were relationship scenarios a lot like the relationship we had so I was clueless. He didn't like my responses so I told him, stop sending me messages that have no point.
Monday morning, I just started studying.
Can you do me a huge favor, and print some shit off Internet for him. Second message, do you think I can see you today. I'm thinking hmmm. I dunno. So I respond sure, you can come by. Meaning I'm not driving way over to you and I have to work in two hours. Old Brandi would, not new one! Besides I was busy.
He didn't respond. So I asked a very direct question. He hates these for some reason. Asked him if he seen me, would he try something. Oooh he didn't like that. So he calls. No, that was not his intent, he really just wanted to see me. Fine, whatever. Now he is upset. That's why I don't like having these convo with you, he says. (Hint) Stop calling me then.
We get off the phone I write like 5 messages back telling him don't send random messages without knowing I am going to ask you what in the heck are you talking about and since I can't read your mind, I ask questions! Deal with it.
Conversation gets interesting. Guess its fair since I broke your heart, now your breaking mine. Wow just wow. So I was straight up, told him he never broke my heart but if I broke his with all this bs we have been through, then I apologize. He writes Fuck you, Good Bye. That's priceless. My only thought is he was mad because he didn't break my heart. What a loser!
Now this is more like it, I usually have bad reps with it comes to guys I am done with. They never like me in the end. I earn my title. Haven't been called out my name in a while though, so its all good.
Its Tuesday, almost done with post. Tired of losing priceless friendships because out of temptation and attraction it is taken to a new level. I want my friend back but I don't think its going to work out that way.
I am learning to deal with the fact that I may never have you because the sacrifice is far too great. I treasure friendship and I do not want to risk losing yours if "us" doesn't pan out.
Thanks For Listening.
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We kissed and made up, figurely speaking.
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