I decided in April to move back to the Midwest to be close to my parents.....I moved on Sept 1st. Left my position, my home and my sheer independence. I already miss my home girl Nini and my place sorta..... haha.
I have been seeking a new job. I would love to begin my career and a new life chapter but I must wait until God grants me that. Until it is my time. Patience Brandi. Lord, grant me the serenity to pump my brakes. Your time. Your will.
My plan is to move to the KC area when the time comes....I still can not do Topeka. I asked him could he live in Lawrence...its possible. In fact I refuse Topeka...I remember saying only my husband could get me to Topeka. I just don't wanna. Things around here have gotten so so bad lately. Murders, robberies (armed), abduction, and missing people. Small town crazies. And the minimum number of children to single parent is still 3. I'm 28, no babies, children, college grad, and unmarried. Rare. I've never been pregnant, such a virgin at so much (good and bad)
Although I am ready to date, and have a serious relationship I can't make that determination. So, I'll just continue working on me so I will be completely ready for when he is presented to me. I believe there is a Godly man out there (may even know him) that God created just for me. I should take Topeka by storm, but I just wanna make it like I'm not even here. Don't wanna see people. Or be associated with the area. Growth is needed.
Help me Lord.
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