There was a post and a beginning to the last post....one that spoke happiness. One that would have expressed love for another. Well that ship sailed and foolish me should not have ever opened the door!
Still no updates posted about this year....started great. Had love, had another I shut out and put on the back burner. But what I did I do...maintained communication and couldn't wait to break up with the guy that I thought was suppose to be mine. Here we are in September....my birth month and yet we're still speaking. I don't know what to think anymore. We speak of love now and I start to wonder do I know the definition.....I know the love shown to those unconditionally but I am confused with it comes to the opposite sex. I know its not a emotion to seek lightly.....yet he is what I think and hope for. I know me, and I know I am good for ruining everything and running people off. Whenever you find happiness that is when people show up and cause issues....he waited for me. We've been talking like a year now and he has been patient through it all. Don't I deserve love and happiness for me. Don't I deserve a man that loves me and accepts me as I am. Don't I deserve to one day meet the one person that sweeps me off my feet. Never downing me or making me less than a person because of their own selfish whims. I do love him and I know I have to do better and not make excuses and just let him in.
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