Because I am 50 shades of fucked up......
So I am re-reading my erotic trilogy since the movie is set to release February 2015. I am still in book one, 50 Shades of Grey. On page 333 of the 514 page novel, not bad for a FT time student and employee. I mean I do have to read textbooks too :)
Started my third course last night, HRM.....I was at first overwhelmed upon reading the syllabus as were many others in my cohort. It all seemed like busy work... but it won't be as bad long as I don't leave it all for Tuesday evening like I did this week. :)
It has been a week for me and life. I did not want to do a thing, my mind and thoughts just in shambles. I could not focus and just wanted to do nothing, but play on my phone. I am glad this week is coming to an end. I am looking forward to a peaceful weekend. There is a wedding Saturday for a church member, I'll attend. No reception. Hopefully, rest or home, or homework :)
I have wanted to reach out so badly. It hurt knowing I couldn't. A friend had my back when I needed her Sunday. I couldn't even read the hurt away and I was so in a funk that being out didn't seem like a smart idea. (Well, I didn't want to!)
Back to Grey.
So, this book turns my thoughts inside out... it is mind blowing and makes me wish I had my own Sir to set my body aflame. The words on the page, I want them to become reality (to a small extent) not full on dominatrix and body plugs and such. LOL
I am so anticipating the movie, (LIKE I CAN'T WAIT) I know it's like I am a sexual deviant that has been closed off. An untapped source...well untapped now. I was a bad girl in the South (won't say anything else).
I have been reading erotica since HS, people in my life know I enjoy these sort of books. I guess I should be embarrassed, but there are worst things I could do. And my reading has not caused an detriment to me or others. I have a creative mind, so this reading is good for me. As I got older in my early 20's a mentor of mine tried to shift my reading to more Christian based novels. I read those, enjoyed them and still found other books to occupy my thoughts. I even established a new author that I enjoyed...Francis Ray. Her books weren't as raunchy, but still gave me something to ponder :)
I remember my first encounter (the source is even more priceless) regarding these novels and get this.... ADDICTED is set to release in theaters in less than one week. Addicted was my first book read by Zane. Followed by Heat Seekers, Nervous and the list continues. I need to plan that movie trip, think I'll be in the city when it releases....too bad I don't have girlfriends to accompany me. Darn.
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It's February 2015, the movie releases 2/14 (we aren't seeing since we have to be out of town.)But FYI...I am still on book 2 about mid way through. That's the life of a FT worker, grad student, and woman in a relationship. No time to read leisurely anymore. Oh well. The time will come.
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