I plague myself and ask this question often.
What is my purpose? What am I here for? I have read through "Purpose Driven Life" like 3x...none on my own. I have not done my own studying. Maybe I should.
So often I used to place myself in a box, never wanting to show the true me. Always concerned what everyone would think if they knew...then I grew up and life happened best it could for me.
From time to time I wonder what am I doing?
Where do I go from here?
From the outside looking in, all seems well. It seems like I have it "going on" and things are in place. In actuality I know the truth and I know things aren't as they seem. When I try to reach out to my mom to talk, I am reminded how "good I've got it" and how I should be proud of what I've accomplished. If I sit and compared myself I would see her point. Yet, I don't do that.
I look apples to apples and how I am not where I want to be in life. I think about will I ever be...will I always feel not like my best? Shall I remain envious?
I'm sorta tired...like always again. Yet, I don't gripe on it. I know it's my own fault for not sticking with my vitamins. They were working.
True purpose for this post and I haven't even touched on it. A lot going on around me. New clinic location, out here in the middle of nothingness. Guess I'll start a new post soon....get down to the nitty gritty.
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