*Names were removed to keep the peace :)
This has gone on long enough. I am not asking for your friendship nor am I asking that you forgive me. I am just asking why you are acting like a child. You stopped speaking to everyone who is associated with me and I do not think that is fair to them. No one is involved in this except for you and me. This is our issue why make it affect everyone??
I know the entire situation was messed up………since the beginning when phone numbers were exchanged. I came to you before anything got of outta hand, I asked basically for your blessing. I apologized for your misunderstanding of the situation. I told you I never had any intentions of being anything more than a friend to him and that was the truth. You felt betrayed like I went behind your back and did something wrong. What I can’t seem to understand is “what was so wrong about him and I being friends too?!?!?” We all met on the same day at the same time…so where was I wrong?
Question, was he your boyfriend? A guy you were talking to as more than a friend? Did he ever show you any interest or give you the slightly hint that he was interest in being more than your friend?
The funny thing about this is everything was innocent until numbers were exchanged and he started calling. We both know how it all went down. Need I remind you? I think its best.
Sunday evening….*Woman and *me take a drive to the auto part store, just got back from eating with a mutual friend. We happen to drive past a street where we seen your friend, *that man’s truck, so we turned around and drove passed. We stopped talked for a bit left and returned shortly after. We are sitting in the car doing our usual text messaging while *that man was doing his usual flirting with you. While all the time you continue to play “hard to get.”
By the way…I am extremely happy that you finally decided to give the man a chance. Happy for the both of you!
Anyway back to Sunday afternoon.
So we are still sitting in the car, *that man says to me, “I want you to meet someone, I think he maybe good for you” my response is I could careless about meeting some new random guy that *that man approves of but hey he is older somewhat mature maybe he knows what he is talking about. Then it starts, *the problem comes to the car, you and *that man began playing matchmaker telling him to come to Church and meet this girl that sings in the choir. Funny how things happen. We are asked to get out the car so everyone can take a good look at us, dogs I tell you. We are embarrassed but stayed around for the conversation. He begins asking you a million and one questions that you immediately answer to my surprise. Your number was given to him so he could call you about coming to church. I did not give him mine because I was too shy.
This is when it all went down hill. I do not know the exact conversations that you shared nor do I care to know. You were interested one day and the next he was weird
What's crazy is when I mentioned the phone number exchange and how he was suppose to be hooked up with me that evening we "talked" you shrugged it off like oh well your lost. That was BS but oh well. Guess your plan did not work out as you planned. You’re old enough to realize you cannot change a person to fit to your liking especially if they are not interested in you anyway. Well maybe you didn't know...is that why you tried?
You never came out and told me you liked him, I guess I was supposed to figure that out for myself. Maybe from your actions, yet I had never seen you act a certain way toward a man before unless you were being mean and showing them no interest. Everything was such a secret with you, I did not expect to know everything but I cannot fully be blamed for the way things happened.
To set the record straight, when he got in his accident he did not call me. I happen to call right after it happened. As the caring person that I am I wanted to make sure he was alright so I went to help him when no one else could. It was not my responsibility or my duty to call you and tell. I could have but do you honestly feel like things would have turned out differently?
You already had set in your mind that I was no good anyway. I can’t believe you would ask him if he would try to have sex with me, what kind of crap is that?? That statement was the first step you took backwards toward childhood. If we were ever true friends stuff like that would have never been brought up, he did not know me and you wanted to keep it that way. That’s fine though, I am unaffected it only makes me stronger to know you could stoop so low. Making people think I was incompetent and that I placed you on a high pedestal. *woman, I valued you as a person and friend. I looked up to you as a Christian woman, but we were friends. I know I am younger, but if I was so young and naive then why did we spend so much time together? Sorry to tell you, but hun we’re on the same level, you’ve just lived longer and accomplished more in life.
I’m gonna end this here because I am tired of rambling, best wishes to you in life.
Me.
With all that said, she and I did make up, she even called me to the hospital when her baby was born. Time heals all things, people grow and forgive. Just an insight into the person I was and can be. Life has allowed me to grow. God has healed me over and over. And I know He will continue to if it is needed.
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